bluegreensound

jeff davis, I have a problem with liking your terrible shows.

Wed, 12 Jun 2013 14:54:31 -0400

jeff davis, I have a problem with liking your terrible shows.

hee hee

Wed, 05 Jun 2013 01:45:44 -0400

season 3 premiere: watched

I had actually forgotten about the hours and hours of mental health benefits from getting actually...

Wed, 29 May 2013 23:51:39 -0400

I had actually forgotten about the hours and hours of mental health benefits from getting actually tired at the gym and actually swimming my whole routine after my whole workout routine.

like hours and hours of basically happy calmness.

but some experimental results: swimming and music really do help a lot.

Wed, 29 May 2013 21:55:26 -0400

but some experimental results: swimming and music really do help a lot.

so

Wed, 29 May 2013 20:27:55 -0400

I am know intellectually that the rewards for self-control are more than just “feeling like a better person” and “eventual peace of mind,” but it’s incredibly hard to remember that sometimes and just ugh balls man, I wish the rewards were more fucking tangible and immediate than all that.

I’m trying.

Tue, 28 May 2013 22:55:29 -0400

I’m trying.

don’t take any of this seriously. I’m just venting/processing.

Mon, 27 May 2013 14:54:26 -0400

don’t take any of this seriously. I’m just venting/processing.

stay away from me everybody ‘cos I’m in my sin. if this joint is raided. somebody give...

Mon, 27 May 2013 11:12:08 -0400

stay away from me everybody ‘cos I’m in my sin. if this joint is raided. somebody give me my gin.

then have my lips the sin that they have took. sin from thy lips? o trespass sweetly urged! give me my sin again.

that’s us, before we got there.

d’you want to go to heaven, or would you rather not be saved? here comes my train

running thru my mind all the time lately

Mon, 27 May 2013 10:23:28 -0400

the phrase: “persist in error”

no, I refuse

Mon, 27 May 2013 06:00:42 -0400

apparently the vivid horrible nightmares are back?

third in as many weeks.

I can’t actually take it if they last as long as they did in 2004 (3 months straight of 1-3x a week).

fuck you, brain.

oh hey

Sun, 26 May 2013 15:04:08 -0400

I cried about an hour ago. not really about this. but also not not about this? so now: make this week over.

this

Sat, 25 May 2013 22:51:41 -0400

seems like it is going to be something that sticks with me way more than I thought it would. because yeah. I guess I sort of designed it that way.

my god, disavowal is a fucking jerk.

huh.

hmmm.

maybe I should think about that.

huh. this is almost interesting.

music totally works

Sat, 25 May 2013 10:39:50 -0400

https://www.cliburn.org/ondemand.html

https://www.cliburn.org/landing.html

memoirs of lost euphoria

Fri, 24 May 2013 22:51:16 -0400

I was always just a bit too young or in the wrong place:

http://www.vice.com/en_uk/read/rave-video-comments-will-restore-your-faith-in-humanity

ugh

Fri, 24 May 2013 12:57:49 -0400

still hard and I am an idiot and I knew that but yeah.

uh, I was just working through some stuff? and I didn’t want to talk about it and I still...

Thu, 23 May 2013 23:36:32 -0400

uh, I was just working through some stuff? and I didn’t want to talk about it and I still don’t but I wanted to note it. that’s all.

also, I’m okay.

okay

Thu, 23 May 2013 22:40:12 -0400

yep.

I just want this day to end.

Thu, 23 May 2013 18:41:35 -0400

I just want this day to end.

or not

Thu, 23 May 2013 15:39:07 -0400

hey, it’s going to be a long day…

pop

Thu, 23 May 2013 15:30:02 -0400

music does actually solve most things.

swimming might solve a few more.